I blame myself for my month-long relapse. I’ve been too casual and chill about recovery & didn’t even have a structured plan for post-breakup when I knew that I’d be particularly vulnerable to ED. My attitude was "lets go w/ the flow, i think i can do this, we’ll see how it goes, and hope i can make it!" That was it. And ED needs to be tackled w/ a solid, structured, & meticulous plan, not just a free flowing "go w/ the flow" type of attitude. I have a 1/2 type-A and 1/2 type-B personality. Recovery is an area where I need to be type-A: super organized, driven, goal oriented, and ambitious. 

MANDATORY TOOLS:

1) DAILY: meal plan & exercise log

2) DAILY: book study. wake up 10 minutes earlier to read a chapter or excerpt from a recovery book. yes, it’s going to suck & ill want to push the snooze button, but i have to commit to this. it helps immensely to counter my ed thoughts FIRST THING in the morning w/ a recovery oriented book. it will set the right tone for the day. waking up 10 minutes earlier is only a small investment for what could make a huge difference.

3) DAILY (except sat/sun): jog = always an endorphin rush.

4) DAILY: in the evenings/nights, reflect on my day in a journal. this will help prevent me from burying my feelings deep down where it manifests itself in the form of ED. journal. even if its just one sentence. write something.

5) WEEKLY: therapy appointment. i get free 5-6 sessions at my school w/ anthony who is extremely knowledgable. after that, ill have to find another one in december right away since winter break might be another vulnerable time (too much time when school is out, family functions, holidays, etc).

6) WEEKLY: socialize. initiate social plans. my social life was great this summer but took a backseat during my recent relapse. unacceptable. lets get back on it! i had dinner w/ friends tonight & ive got 2 more dinner plans for next week as well. IN YO FACE, ED.

(that seems like a long list to commit to, but hey, my life and sanity is on the line here. as they say, nothing worth having comes easy.)

OTHER TOOLS AS NEEDED:

5) goals on 43things – always inspiring, motivating, uplifting, and positive

6) leisurely reading – my guilty pleasure

7) something fishy bulletin board – encourage someone on there, or reach out for help if i need it

take a nap

9) draw – how i feel, future goals, a relaxing scene, anything

…..it’s ON. you’re goin down ED.  

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