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T- ur back! thx for your note. im not cutting anymore 
i had a rough time last week, but i got thru it & am in a much better place. im also seeing a counselor @ my college campus for free (part of tuition). she specializes in eating disorders. ive only seen her once so far, but i have a good feeling about it. i can relate to your need to restrict/exercise. on the same boat! lol. i know how good it feels to feel "light" and workout and lose weight. but i remind myself that after the short initial high, then comes panicking about every calorie, obssessing at the mirror, feeling fatter, and just being so consumed by food. i dont know if its worth it anymore. im still tempted too tho. anyways! ill email you this wk
i had a rough time last week, but i got thru it & am in a much better place. im also seeing a counselor @ my college campus for free (part of tuition). she specializes in eating disorders. ive only seen her once so far, but i have a good feeling about it. i can relate to your need to restrict/exercise. on the same boat! lol. i know how good it feels to feel "light" and workout and lose weight. but i remind myself that after the short initial high, then comes panicking about every calorie, obssessing at the mirror, feeling fatter, and just being so consumed by food. i dont know if its worth it anymore. im still tempted too tho. anyways! ill email you this wk random thoughts/feelings right now:
- Back at my dorm after a surprisingly almost-drama-free weekend at home
- Weekend was crazy busy, only studied 2 hrs for monday’s statistics exam :/
- My family is moving tomorrow to an apartment. I feel so guilty that I’m not able to help. My mom’s stress/fatigue was so obvious today even tho she tried to hide it. She works so hard, even when she’s recovering from thyroid cancer which affects her metabolism. And she has to deal with my sister. Plus, she goes to counseling alone to work thru her marriage issues. there’s so much on her plate & i feel her stress. i wish i could do something for her. so i left home feeling burdened. i hope the move goes smoothly tomorrow. i hope the stress wont cause drama in the family.
- ED-wise, I’m doing much better I’m leaning on food way less, it feels like a miracle. I know theres still much work to do, but I’m so excited for this rare progress! I need to stop moping around & take responsibility for my life/actions/feelings. I need to stop blaming outside factors for my own well-being.
- J’s mom is dying from cancer. They say she only has 2-wks left. J is flying out to see her tomorrow. Sad times. Life is so short.
- Due to last week’s depression and laziness, i fell behind in school. i mean, BEHIND. i have a lot of catching up to do this week.
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